Oh My The Pictures

wow. haven't written in here for a long time. well. Braden is 4 months old now. he was born on August 7th 2004. he was 8lbs 3oz. he was nine days early. he's beautiful! and he's an amazing baby. he rolled over for the first time on november 19th hehe. haha i'm such a mom. i love it. i miss being able to just leave. but when he smiles and does stuff it just makes it all worth while. jeremy has made no effort what so ever to even call me, or make sure braden is ok. so fuck him. his loss. braden and i have our own place now. it's a two bedroom condo. it's subsidised housing, but it's still our home. i have to get pictures for my walls. their so naked!! haha. my mom is back with asshole richard. he was surprisingly really nice to me the other day when i went over there to help my mom decorate her christmas tree. i was scared haha. but yeah. braden is my little bundle of joy. i really don't know what else to talk about. so that's all for now. later kats.

So i'm seven months pregnant now. Freaking huge i say, and all swollen :p there's a pic in about me. i'm back at my mom's right now. unfortunately. everything was going good for the past two weeks, cuz her and richard broke up, but it's all gonna go back to how it was. she's gonna ignore me all over again.. typical. she told my brother that what happens between richard and i is between us only. bullshit, if it was why did she bitch and complain to me for the past two fucking weeks. but now i'm dirt again. buh. it was so nice to have my mom back, just for that little while. too bad it won't last. Jeremy and I actually spoke for a bit the other day. let me tell you, that was mighty interesting. he's not using his head. like that surprises me. but it's cool to see he actually wants to be a dad.. but he wants to send the baby back and forth to each other every six months. yeah cuz i really wanna send my son across the country.. *thumbs up* he's thinking about himself and not about the baby. he's not being logical. oh well. anywho.. i have a foot in my rib and i'm really uncomfy, so im out. later kats!

January 4th 2004 - 11:39pm

yo yo.. well. it's already 2004.. tis crazy.. my 19th is in nine days!!! wweeee.. we're gonna go to the strippers. haha. so lots is new actually.. i'm pregnant.. yeaup.. ha.. crazyness.. i have my first ultrasound on thursday. i'm excited but scared. it kinda sucks with the timiing and everything, cuz jeremy and i have not been dating long, and well i just moved out.blah blah blah.. i'm tired.. jeremy comes home from the rigs on friday.. weee.. i'm excited.. yeah so that job i was talking about, is a joke.. it sucks ass.. so as of now i'm jobless which really blows.. but i'm gonna go job hunting tomorrow.. i just won't tell them that i'm pregnant.. ha.. anywho i'm out.. later kats.

so long time no write.. i'm moved out.. on my own.. well with jackie.. it's an uber nice apartment.. it's really big too.. and there's a gym and a pool.. yay! jackie moved here from sask. rad i say.. so kevin and i are no more.. he'll always have a place in my heart though.. i know it sounds corny.. but he's still a really important person to me.. he's still gonna come in december.. but only for a couple days.. i'm really glad he's still coming.. it'll be fun.. :) but enough of my ramble.. i gotta figure out the bus schedule to get to work tomorrow.. and ooo i might have a new job if the interview goes well on wednesday.. yay! *dances* :) ok.. that's all.. later kats..

wooo so wednesday was Poison The Well, AutoPilot Off, and AFI.. it was a really good show.. Poison The Well as last time, put on an amazing set.. i love those guys.. they make me wanna jizz in my pants.. haha.. Lyn was slightly inebriated when she got there.. which made it all that much more fun.. haha.. and there was a suuuuper hot guy there.. i wanted to hump his leg.. and all these kids kept jumping over the barricade thingy to get to the floor and were being TACKLED by the security guards.. it was golden.. so harsh how those security guards take everything so seriously.. but it was soooo funny seeing all these kids running past and then getting tackled.. I was quite sad that poison the well didn't have any shirts though..all they had was cd's and hats.. but oh well i guess i'll live with one ptw shirt.. ha.. So anywho.. my mom and assman went to ontario for a week, they got back on.. umm... sunday night.. but whilst they were gone i had a couple party;s.. haha.. the first one was mildly entertaining.. got drunk decided iw as gonna climb trees, got really high up and decided i was too scared to get down..hahahah.. so i slid half way and jumped the rest..the next one wasn't as fun..b ut still fun..lyn and i got supppper drunk.. and i climbed trees again.. I BROKE THE TREE! man did i ever feel fat after that.. ha.. so yeah that was entertaining that night.. but we had to be kinda quiet cuz matt (shanda and dusty's baby was there) but i still had fun.. haha i remember i showed lyn my nipple ring.. and we took our bra's off in the kitchen to see who's boobs were perkier.. yes yes we are weird.. haha.. so yeah then on sunday we watched donnie darko.. i love that movie.. it's soooo good.. then my mom got home.. and the second night they were home.. assman decided he was gonna yell at me for doing my homework.. he can eat a dick.. and then the next day.. i was sitting in the living room, finishing up my homework and he comes in saying we need to talk.. and then proceeded to tell me i had to moveout.. and that they'll give me the start up money.. that's fine.. but what the fuck am i gonna do when i can't afford the next month's rent? like i told him i was planning on moving out in january.. and he was like that's not soon enough.. fuck him.. he can go and die for all i care.. he's useless and i don't understand what my mom see's in him.. anywho..JON MOVED HERE!! yay.. it's exciting.. but the fucker hasn't called me yet.. bastard!! *shakes fist* haha.. anywho.. i have to go and read to kill a mocking bird.. haha the module is due on monday.. andi haven't finished the book yet.. yayme.. haha.. anywho.. later kats!

well well it's been awhile.. i'm back home in edmonton.. yay! i missed it like mmmaaadddd...I'm back working at beadworks.. it's alright.. i got a raise.. yeehaw.. seven dollars.. i'm rich..ha..yeah no.. i'm back in school yay!!!! i'm just finishing up one of the modules.. and going in tomorrow to get more.. it's nice to back in school.. bahaha i just answered the phone and went to ask my mom something and i totally fell on my ass.. that was quite funny.. but kinda hurt.. haha.. woop.. so i don't know what else to really talk about.. been busy.. hanging out with friends lots, karaoking.. haha.. visiting baby's and shit.. and really disliking my mom's fiance.. haha.. anywho.. i'm out.. later kats..

hola, so not all that much is new.. getting along better with brian.. i'm sure it won't last long though.. so kevin's out on tour he'll be back on saturday night.. but i get to see him on sunday!!! yay!!! i miss him like mad.. :( he bought me stuff! and he won't even tell me what one of them is! haha.. i'm suppose to be out with them.. but noo stupid job.. ha.. i'll bitch about that til he gets home.. ha.. cuz i'm that nerdy.. hehe.. i work tomorrow morning at seven.. so no going out for me tonight.. nopers.. not that i'd have that much to do..but yeah.. so my mom sent me pictures of her in her wedding dress.. very pretty if i do say so myself.. but she's got this crazy tan.. haha.. she needs to do something about that before aug.22.. stacey said she might not be able to come.. so that sucks lots.. i really want her to be there.. hopefully kevin will be coming back with me.. i really really want him to.. shit i miss him like crazy and it's been less then a week since he's been gone.. aw crap, i just remembered that i have to do laundry.. fack.. i will get it done before i go to bed..yup yup.. anywho.. i think i've babbled enough for today.. i seem to do that alot eh? ha.. indeed.. ok.. i'm off.. later kats.. - i love you kevin!!! :)

July 14th 2003 - 2:28pm

Hola, So i'm moving out in october.. should be rad.. i'm really quite excited. if i can move out sooner i probably will.. i like living with melissa but brian has just been driving me nuts.. his mood swings are driving me nuts!! ha.. so i wrote him a letter last night and then just left.. i basically told him to stop trying to tell me how to live my life and to stop trying to act like my dad.. and then he's saying how he's not trying to be my dad and blah blah blah.. but oh well.. I'm so excited for Aug.2nd. I get to see Thrice.. I'm so friggin pumped.. My favourite band.. pretty much. so my job at tim horton's isn't too bad.. i only work three shifts this week.. i work three to ten tomorrow.. boo to that.. so kevin is gone for the week.. which sucks lots.. i miss him already.. :( So stacey calls me last night to tell me that catlin has turned HICK!! haha.. i busted a gut laughing.. it was awesome.. so July 24th.. hehe.. stacey knows what i'm talking about.. and thank you for saying yes stacey :) anywho.. i'm gonna get goin.. i gotta get some shit down.. later kats.

hey hey.. things are going crazy out here.. ha.. i finally got a real job at Tim Hortons!! haha.. but that means that i can't go on tour with kevin and his band.. which is hella dissapointing.. :( we were gonna go to new york city. that woulda been friggin awesome.. but no such luck.. well i'm gonna see if i can say somebody died in my family and that i have to go back to edmonton.. haha.. but i really don't wanna lose my job.. if that whole scenario works then i'll go.. but if it doesn't.. no dice.. brian has been driving me absoluting freaking nuts.. he says i can't get dreds.. i'm like what? you're not my fucking dad, he has no say whatsoever.. it's not his hair.. and he says he has impressionable kids.. hmm ok.. i have piercings everywhere but dreds would be horrible.. oi.. anywho.. so in a way i kinda wanna go home.. but in a way now i totally don't.. things seem to be looking up for me.. and the only reason i'm kinda staying is because of Kevin. I really really don't want to hurt him. he means too much to me.. He might come home with me this summer.. that would be awesome.. everyone can meet him and stuff :) i'm so excited to go home.. just to see everyone.. i miss them like mad.. but anywho.. i should get going.. today is melissa's birthday..so i should do something nice.. later kats..

yo, so on friday i went to buffalo.. it was rad! i went with kevin and his mom.. we went to hot topic.. and i got a hot pink carebear wrist band.. and i got a black one.. and i got a dashboard confessional shirt.. wicked.. So kevin and the guys from his band have asked me to go on tour with them to the states and stuff.. and i'm so gonna go.. it's gonna be rad.. i'm the official merch seller! haha.. i'm excited.. we're going to new york and maryland and philidelphia or somethin.. anywho.. Melissa and I went to see Charlies Angels - full throttle tonight.. it was lame but it was good.. hehe.. i liked it.. so my mom is getting married!!!! it's so weird.. at first i was just like cool my mom's getting married.. then i realized i'm gonna have a stepdad.. fucking weird i say..nobody reads my site but kevin.. :( it's sad.. haha.. anywho.. i gotta get to work before brian shits a brick on my head.. ha.. later kats..

June 23rd 2003 - 4:16pm

werd. I'm at kevin's right now. We just had a massive water fight. twas fun.. so this weekend was so rad.. Friday night i saw the petit project, saturday i saw From Autumn To Ashes, a static lullaby, alexisonfire (boo to them they kinda suck) and boysnightout.. they all played an awesome show..i got a crazy fata shirt.. there's a dead girl on it.. it kinda scares me.. and then i got a static lullaby one.. it's red and hot. rowr.. haha we went and saw them again last night too.. it was a much better show then saturdays.. yup.. argh i'm gonna kill kevin.. he keeps taking pictures of me.. it's driving me retarded.. i can't turn around for like a second without him taking a picture.. i'm gonna kill him.. haha.. so he's decided with all the retarded pictures he's taken of me.. that he's gonna make a site full of pictures for my mommo.. ha.. it'll be interesting.. anywho.. i'm out.. later kats.. - i lub ju kevin!

June 17th 2003 - 12:47am

yo.. oi i'm so sunburnt.. ack! we went to this picnic on saturday with the kids... and then yesterday we went to mosport and there was this cascar race..so i got even more burnt.. grrr.. i've been putting vitamin E on.. it's stinky.. haha.. and sticky.. I'm so excited for this weekend.. From Autumn To Ashes twice in a row.. aieee!! and the petit project on friday.. i'm pumped.. woo.. so today kevin and i went to lake ontario.. it's like a five minute walk from my house.. it's so polluted.. so it's not somewhere to swim.. but it was awesome.. i had a really rad time.. haha the canadian geese hissed at us!! haha.. it was scary..but oh so funny..and then we went to his house.. and ate kraft dinner.. and he went retarded with the camera.. haha.. and then i came home.. and puked.. yuck! then i finally fell asleep.. so that i could get some sleep before work.. and brian didn't even wake me up!! rawr!! anywho.. that's all for now.. later kats.. p.s. - lub ju kevin! hehe

June 6th 2003 - 11:07pm

Must have coffee.. ha.. I'm working with Brian tonight.. 12 until whenever we're done.. so i'll probably be home at like 4 or 5ish.. It'll be interesting.. and I GET PAID!! aiieeee!! hehe.. I need money sooooo badly.. I hate bills.. yesh.. So we're moving to the country.. To Palgrave.. Not so excited about it.. Cuz it's like twenty five minutes outside of toronto.. which sucks cuz i don't drive.. but well i guess it'll all work out until i'm done school and stuff.. And then i'll probably move out.. But if i'm gonna be doing university out here too then i'll be there longer.. aiee.. must get license!! haha.. the system out here is completely retarded though.. ah well.. ha last night kevin and i made jell-o and it didn't go jelloie.. it's still watery.. ah well.. but i made spaghetti sauce last night from scratch!! I'm so good.. haha.. right.. anywho.. but i burnt myself.. ha it hurt.. and my uncle is all pissed at me cuz i didn't wanna go see my gramma this weekend.. he doesn't seem to understand that i didn't move here because of her.. i moved here cuz well i just did.. but oh well.. i should probably go get ready to work and shit.. later kats.. p.s. kevin is hot.. hehe.

June 4th 2003 - 10:13am

Boo urns it's so blahy outside today.. it looks soooo cold.. a boo.. so today i'm babysitting.. well somewhat.. she's nine.. and suspended from school for the day.. pro star she is.. and she thinks it's funny.. no dice.. So last night Kevin and i went downtown, and he got a whole bunch cd's.. there were a couple silverstein ones.. i really wanted one but i can't afford it.. so i did not get it.. I'm eating yogurt.. Peach.. it's kinda wonky.. but ah well.. food is food.. Holy shit i'm so shocked Val is actually listening to me!! she's sweeping!! holy shit!! haha.. Oh man, so my cousin comes into my room today and says something along the lines of me going to my gramma's.. Isooooo do not want to go to my gramma's.. it's so friggin boring there.. buh.. anywho.. val needs my help with something.. so i best be going.. later kats.. oh yeah.. kevin is hot.. haha..

Kevin is hot.. rowr!! *humpZ leg*

May 29th 2003 - 12:41pm

So I've decided that I'm staying in Toronto. I just don't really wanna go back to Edmonton. I'm gonna start school up in the fall and I'm job hunting like mad. I just picked up tons of applications. I'm scared but hella excited that i'm staying. I miss my mom and my dog.. but I think i'll survive until christmas. And I might go back for a little bit during the summer.. but that all depends on my money situation. I'm running so low on money. I need to find a job. And I need to switch my cell phone over to an ontario number.. Can't deal with all this long distance mumbo jumbo.. ha.. alright well that is all.. later kats..

May 24th 2003. 2:46pm

So my journey onward to Ontario has been going good.. I'm in Toronto right now. It's alot more fun then Ottawa and Mallorytown. I guess  it's cuz I'm actually hanging out with people my own age instead of aunts and uncles and cousins not even old enough to speak. ha. Kevin is so much fun. I really like him.. It really sucks that I live out there and he lives out here.. Buh.. That always happens.. haha.. I meet a guy i like and he lives somewhere else.. drat! We went mini golfing last night.. he beat me.haha.. Melissa is really rad.. She took me to niagara falls on thursday night. Got pretty wet.. ha.. There's some pretty nerdy pics of me on here with my cousins. anywho.. I best be going.. i just thought it would be interesting to write on here.. :) later kats..